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| Saturday, November 29 |
| there are alot of things to update about, but at the moment, nth is coming to my mind. or rather, all these while since the last entry, no mood to blog. abit of anticipation here and there during the mugging sessions. old fren kept me company, and jace came to stayover as well:) mugging has taken up most of my time till 19nov. so since then, NO studies, NO chinese books! flung my last paper, BADLY. couldn't get over 'it' and refuse to go out that night. it was only until after dinner time that my roomie managed to drag me out. chill abit and icecream :):) the few days after exam were rather.. hmmm... blah blah blah.. overall went out quite a few times, DONT like to be alone at home. parents reali choose a DAMN good time to be away. and somehow, i feel the distant between us, maybe im the noob jumping ard hoping for some things. yea dont expect anith, its the best way out!~ well ranting ranting.. prison break rocks! ghost whisperer is VERY nice! i thought i will feel very bad about it, but in fact, the feelings are not so strong, rather blank and numb, maybe, the isn't any connection already, which explains why i feel nothing. i hate cramps.. ruin my day ytd and today! im so sorry....... |
| (Your Name) ♥ 9:53:00 pm |
| Tuesday, November 11 |
its been awhile.. have been rather busy these day. since i cant load ps, i decided to do abit catch-up with everyone's blog. and hell i regret doing so.. there's a reason y i always skip your blog recently, a part of us is no longer the same, we dont share the same _____. but im reali vvv happy for you buddy.. each and everyday, you learn more about each other. soon you will know for sure your blurblur is here:) and anw, i wasn't feeling good after reading afew post and i tink i breakdown totally when i read that post, the feelings kinda build up and......... isit true?? i dont tink thats courageous, its plain silly. but i did, i did try everything i could to salvage 'it'. i failed terribly, like always. going deeper each time... so much and yet nth much seems to have happened since i last post. mum left for her 3 weeks shanghai/hongkong holi on 1nov... i was in a half awake state when she kiss me gdbye. have been dining outside all the time since she left, dad is lazy to cook. kinda sick of outside food. the following day, sunday.. rushed my last essay, reached hall at night.. and disaster.... emoemoemo for no reason, everything came crushing down on me, reali very bad feeling, staring at the half done essay with no intention to type anith. all the memories flowing back,lost all control of my emotion. i realised, im gna end my exams on that date.. 19nov. end of A'level for alot of ppl last yr. 19nov. hoping to feel better, i talk to roomie. and what we said, only made things worse.. to the point i nearly puked. you are asking me to do the impossible :(:(:( it will nvr happen... even if its for my own good. i tink im crazy to blast emo songs at 4am. and finally managed to continue with my essay before hitting the bed. what a way to start my week. but it did get alotalot better towards the end. monday was as crazy. chionging the nvr-seem-to-finish essay. rushed here and there, print and stuff. roomie, dont ever buy samsung printer pls! despite cabbing down to boonlay to catch the train, i was still half an hour late. had our postponed-1-mth outing.. celebrated this gal's bdae.  19 le yaya!!! so matured huh!   wanted to watch The Coffin, but there are no more timing..so cam whore in suntec! and our cameraman of the day..  photos are all on fb, see how yaya open her prezzie like a kid and how spastic we are... came back hall on the last train, last bus. and this was what welcomed me when i open the door.   for a moment i was speechless.
roomie i know you left in a hurry for smth vv impt, but at least... warn me of what to expect yea? nevernever have our been in such a 'wonderful' state. but i understand, and found it rather amusing when i pack her stuff... i have a cute roomie :) tue was bugis with mc. travelled alllll the way there to collect his jeans. but it was not yet ready for collection!!!!!!!!! no comments.. but thanks for the icecream. :D:D wed, last lesson and ahfang with roomie. thur, while reading some notz. recieved a great great surprise. i was 0.0 never have i expected anything of such. i was prepared for nothing! i swear! and it made me understand what my fren once told me, it feels great to recieve the unexpected. it kept me smiling the whole day, and the next and the next:):):):) thankiew soso much! fri, home the whole day, ps-ing and slacking. did a little housework and sleep the rest of the day away. still smiling :) dad brought me out for great food, thats the advantage of having mum overseas :) sat nth much.. sunday woke up early to study, lunch and tada.. im in hall! bcuz dad is also flying off to shanghai. felt a little sian, so decided to meet up with 'old fren' instead of waiting until after exam, you always nvr fail to make me worried huh idiot. after that chat, i felt damn guilty! haha made him cab down to my hall to fetch me, not exactly my fault since i was not the one who insisted Orchard. and he brought his new best fren. ... ... ... rather fun looking at them, talking to them, its not what i usually see or hear. amusing! despite a little smoky and !%$*. it was rather fun, great way to destress i guess. makes me think, maybe a part of me, yearns for such life. stupid oldfren's idea to watch The Coffin, hmm not exactly that scary, considering i just watched 4bia one or two mths ago. but its rather boring! cabbed back and realise, im ALONE in my room. thank god lorry/bird ask me to study in games room. it was fun chatting with the athena after so long.  pool... red moving object is oldfren.  and this is the new 'best' fren..monday, fetched eva over from hall 16 to study in my room. she stayed over, but i cant CANT sleep that night! and my first paper is at 9am the following day... awake almost the whole night! and today, had my first paper, dun reali know what was i doing. came out of exam to see 5 missed calls. due to my clever parents, i had to rush to singapore post last minute to speed post my documents and .... thumbprint. someone suggested to paint my finger for thumbprint, how clever!! i need to go there again tmr, 9am... WTH. might as well give me an airticket and settles the whole thing! crap! what a long post..... im not ready to end it yet.. |
| (Your Name) ♥ 11:41:00 pm |
| Saturday, November 1 |
| FINALLY, two essays off my load. slotted in my 60% and 50% this aftnn. mixed feelings! education psychology was a killer! never have i stuggled SO much in making a stand in an essay. 60%!!!! NO JOKE!!! no matter how well we did for PBL, i could still have screwed up this module bcuz of the essay(wich most prob i did alr :( ) i could counter almost EVERY point i thought of for both support and against. CAN DIE writing that essay, the qn itself was alr so.... modern lit... GONE CASE. the essay is so cui, i cant even bear to read it now. wrote only 2.2k words of rubbish when the required word limit is 3000. thx to my wonderfully "fast" skill in typing chinese. it gets on my nerve when i kp getting the WRONG word with the little time left. only started reading 茶馆 and refrence book at 12am last nite or this morn. it has been a crazy, deadly, irritating, exhaust brainjuice and sleepless week. the WORST week ever! pratically din slp the last 2 nights. though the month of OCTOBER has not been reali a easy one, i still hate this week the most. OCTOBER... drained me to the max, emotional rollercoaster (ultimate one), endless deadlines, im glad its over! and i hope somethings can be over too, just like this month. HOWEVER!!!!!!! i still have ONE more essay due next monday. last last essay of this sem. btw this week marks the end of my sem1, how FAST! what a week/DAY to end the sem. being rooted to the chair since 0000hr doing NOTHING else but essay. whenever i stone, im "time travelling", back to last year. i hope i have the luxury of time to do more of it. i hope to stay there, forever! |
| (Your Name) ♥ 12:40:00 am |
