J E N N'S rants

Thursday, October 30

the only thing i wna do now is to STUDY!
I wish i can get extra time a day to STUDY!
I am sacrificing even my slp just to STUDY!
i need all the time in the world to STUDY!

i am not me to say this...
BUT this is the bloody truth about UNI!
and i hate it so!

the only thing wich keeps me drifting from my essay is the counting part. somehow somehow, im always doing calculation in my mind.

STAY ALIVE!

(Your Name) ♥ 6:53:00 pm

Monday, October 27

The feeling's never gone, it was just hidden.
hidden becoz i tout thats the best solution.
Now that its all coming back, i know its a vicious cycle.
i bloody hate myself for allowing it to happen.

i doubt you mean it when you say that,
you can stil catch up??
i dont remember you doing that in your past experience.
but just keep in mind,
there will always be a place for you,
even if i've reali moved on...

(Your Name) ♥ 11:29:00 pm

Saturday, October 25

feeling alot better now compared to last week. if only things could be easier, we wont be so confused. lets learn to hide it inside.

PBL is finally over! FINALLY! had a shock of my life when i saw the portfolio templates, and NONE of us read it. shows how much you guys CARE about this yea? but we still managed to complete the whole thing, by burining monday night. many thanks to one particular person, who only slp two hours before our presentation. i had 3 i tink..... had lotsa fun after listening to prof's comments. :):):):)

WENT

CRAZY

PLAYING

WITH

WEBCAM!!

THERE

ARE

ALOT

UNGLAM

PHOTOS

NOT

UPLOADED

HERE!:):):)

rushed down to town for dental and meet peifen. watched butterfly lover, haha hmmm i tink its vvv lame! dont watch! we both laughed like mad when we hear liang zhu. haha. a band playing liang zhu!!!

wed had training in the rain!!! wet....

thursday... went to JP with roomie to meet a fren, if thats how you want me to say! hmm it was ...???!!!:(:(:(:(... :):):) glad to see you!!

friday, met row for lunch and decided to go back comtech last minute. was shocked by the state of everything at our side. soo much workload with so little ppl. i wont be surprised to see everyone once their contracts are up next year.

it was a short visit, cant bear to stay there longer, went to ps to buy gift, haha. damndamn cute! and movie with sf. burn after reading SUCKS BIG TIME! nth like the trailer! !$%&*^

maybe we should learn to appreciate what we did for each other, instead of complaining. life is easier that way. im happy with everything you did for me the past two days.

now, essay essay essay!!!! 3 bloody essays!

its a gamble

(Your Name) ♥ 11:47:00 am

Saturday, October 18

longest night ever

this is the first time, very first time i felt so abandoned.
no wonder i felt so bad frm the start of the day,
there is a reason to be scared, i knew.

but the truth is, i've been looking forward to it,
wondering how it will turn out,
but the result is......

like i said, i hate the journey to and fro the school.

on this very special day, i wanted to make it a happy one.
but it seems that it is meant to be.
i rather go home, rather nth happened.

you woke me up with that fucking sms,
just to leave me alone again with the cruel fact.

there are many things i shouldn't ask,
but i cant help wonder why,
its the only question i've been thinking through out the nite.
i have put myself into such situation again, pathetic..

how i wish, it wasn't a secret from the start.
if only you could tell the truth.

why come back when you want me to move on?
FUCK!

(Your Name) ♥ 8:29:00 am

Friday, October 17

thankiew roomie!!

love you!!!!

(Your Name) ♥ 6:01:00 pm

记忆最初的爱

i survivied another week :):)

well okie, this week is not SO bad i guess,

dont havta chiong last min work till 8 or 9 am.

sunday was video taking, till real late!

DAMN GROSS BY YOU! bloody idiot!

monday proj meeting then proj stuff till rather late.

tue!!! finally! met up with hsin in JP!

rushed back for training, it was reali fun this week! I LIKE!

but still abit brusied after the training..

wed, dear roomie wna go zouk. after much disccussion, we decided to go with her just in case anything happened, and thank god it was cancelled last minute, i was reali tired gal! and its a good thing, now you know more!!! nontheless, we went for our movie in JP, rather late but it was damn worth it!!! connected is damn nice! came back to START on my presentation research and slides for the next day. haha imagine!

thur, it was a last min decision, went IMM with leo to buy his fridge. TIRING man! haha we spent most of the time in daiso, buying containers!! haha i tink i gt a prob with containers! i cant stop buying! but DAMN nice la! cant help it! roomie and i were snatching boxes!! damn funny!! got his fridge real late and cabbed back. Suppose to do my essay at night, but i just cant get myself to do it. smth kept bugging me! hate the feeling, and unconsciously i read all the msgs again, then and now.....

today.. roomie cant drag me up in the morn. i cant recall what happened, i heard her saying latelatelate, saw her walking ard, then nth. woke up to do the essay shortly after she left, but no idea! slp again, woke up. repeated this afew times until 1pm. my brain not working! i dont like today, NOT AT ALL! instead of looking forward, im rather scared of what is to come. the clear difference. i shouldn't have, shouldn't have put so much into it from the start. it must be rather pressurizing yea?

i will stone, i will emo, but i wont let you see it, nor anyone else. the truth is, we failed to realise, it was over right from the start. it wasn't a mistake. but just over...

last year this time, what were you doing??

(Your Name) ♥ 5:12:00 pm

Saturday, October 11

overdue!

alrite uploaded the photos like FINALLY!

First is JR bdae celebration.
initial plan was to eat in kuishinbo, but rahrahrah, we end up in a korean resturant in Esplanade. Skyped a little in explanade, we look like retards due to the poor wireless connection there. Proceed to starbucks for a better connection, the pair finally had their undisturbed chat after a long time!!