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Tuesday, September 30 |
its nearly 5am in the morn! my headache is killing me but i have JUST finished my research for proj. i have yet to start on my essay which is due next MON!! and studied NTH for my quiz this fri, the thought of it is rather scary! but the thing is, i have NO motivation to start anith! Friend jio me to study in airport but i rather stay at home, not i prefer to be alone, but i dun wna go airport i guess. last yr this time, airport ans expo are like my 2nd home, some how i dont hate studying so much then. BUT i dun wna go back to such life! we are not even near our exam and it feels like...! SHAG! no life no life!!!!! i said so much today, and i know i havta.. its a matter of time. i rmb how it felt to hear NO NO NO! I promised myself no more! its the last ting i want. pop.. goes your last chance! ![]() |
(Your Name) ♥ 4:40:00 am |
Saturday, September 27 |
Someone tell me what exactly is going on in my mind, what exactly is happening. from time to time, my mood starts to fall with no reason, i hate the feeling, i hate myself. Determination is what i need, but with no motivation, its impossible. What is there to anicipate when all hope is lost? what i need is what you can't provide, instead of forcing you to be who u are not, lets just be ourselves. Saying yes to that question requires determination and trust. We are different from the rest, and i believe we can do it! its a blessing, so appreciate and cherish. Falling back or moving on is just a step difference, but it takes so much courage for that one step. |
(Your Name) ♥ 4:26:00 pm |
Sunday, September 7 |
was chatting on msn..two friends gave me different advise, and after going through this for so long, i would say both are right, but i choose to believe that one of them is a false hope, a dream too beautiful to be true. not saying i've lost all hope, but sometimes, we just have to be more realistic, face the fact and not plunge head in again. Yet somehow, its so hard to let go,im not out of it yet, not anywhere near, but i guess i have to. Though i still want an answer to my question, but it doesn't matter anymore now, cuz we can't go back in time, we move forward.. let time answer my question. I know, one day, you will be sure. same bdae wish in two years.. will it ever come true? |
(Your Name) ♥ 2:25:00 am |
Friday, September 5 |
so we are wrong, its not him.. all these while, we are thinking about the wrong person. but well, its a good thing. at least you let go of him already, moved on:) who ever that other one is, all the best! the real one. Who is zr?? maybe its not a him afterall. everyone has their secret, smth which belong to them,and them only. To me, zr is not a secret, its more of a memory. you may have guessed what it is, but let us leave it as it is. where is my secret jar? i've not seen it for ages... afew more celebrations, a few more gifts, still waiting for the whole set to be ready for a combine foto.so far, its rather beary, simply love my friends.. :) as the day draws nearer, i just want to disappear.. |
(Your Name) ♥ 2:44:00 am |